Before my brain could even process the mathematics of the moment, Elaine turned her head to look down the length of the table at me. Her maternal smile remained plastered on her face, but her eyes went dead, sharp, and predatory.
“And before you get any ideas, Hannah,” Elaine said. Her voice dropped into a register of pure, weaponized condescension. It was the tone she used when speaking to telemarketers or waitstaff who had gotten her order wrong. “You don’t deserve any help.”
The room went dead silent, save for Madison’s excited, oblivious, rapid breathing as she tore open the envelope to look at the physical check.
I carefully lowered my fork to my plate. The clink of the silver against the porcelain sounded like a gunshot. The familiar, acidic burn of injustice rose in the back of my throat. It was a burn I had swallowed a thousand times before.
“What did I do?” I asked. My voice was quiet, betraying the tremor in my chest.
Robert didn’t look up from cutting his meat. He didn’t even grant me the dignity of eye contact. “You’re always difficult, Hannah. You job-hop. You don’t settle down. You refuse to listen to our advice. Madison is building a family. She’s marrying a good man from a good family. She deserves support. Why would we invest in you?”
Invest in you.
The words hung in the air, heavy and toxic.
I looked at the three of them. A slideshow of my past five years flashed behind my eyes. I thought of the six months I had quietly paid Robert’s $600 car note when his consulting hours were cut, because he was too proud to trade the luxury sedan in for a cheaper model. I thought of the countless weekends I had given up to babysit Madison’s terror of a golden retriever, or helped her move apartments, or edited her disastrous college essays so she could “have a break.” I thought of the holidays I spent cooking this exact pot roast while Elaine drank wine and complained about her back.
