I was not alone.
Sitting next to me, covered in bright yellow and blue finger paint, was seven-year-old Emma.
Following the arrests, I had immediately filed for emergency custody. Given the severity of the charges and the long prison sentences her parents faced, the family court judge had swiftly granted me full, permanent, sole legal and physical custody of my granddaughter.
We were painting a small wooden birdhouse together. Emma laughed loudly, a bright, clear, and incredibly beautiful sound that filled the entire kitchen. The trauma and confusion of her parents’ sudden disappearance had been entirely, meticulously mitigated by my fierce, unconditional, and constant love. She was thriving, safe, and happy.
The hundreds of thousands of dollars the federal government had forcefully clawed back from Ryan and Brittany’s seized accounts wasn’t sitting in my checking account. I had placed every single recovered cent into a highly secure, impenetrable, generation-skipping trust fund, completely locked away to ensure Emma’s college education and future were permanently secured.
There was no tension in the air. There were no frantic whispers, no passive-aggressive insults, and no terrifying threats of nursing homes.
There was only the immense, empowering, beautiful weightlessness of absolute safety and generational wealth secured by truth.
I smiled, using a wet wipe to clean a smudge of blue paint off Emma’s nose. I was completely, blissfully unbothered by the fact that earlier that morning, a pathetic, multi-page, begging letter from Ryan had arrived in my mailbox, sent from the penitentiary, pleading for forgiveness and a deposit into his commissary account.
It was a letter I had immediately, without reading a single word, dropped directly into the kitchen trash can, buried beneath coffee grounds and eggshells.